Fame Is Transient

"You're nobody until you're being talked about." - Gossip Girl

famous, popular and renowned. those three words literally have the same meaning. they refer to somebody who is well-known and recognized by many people. teenagers nowadays are so obssessed with this one word called 'fame'. three basic things teenagers want to have so bad:

1. stealing the spotlight (like, everytime!)

2. looking chic and cool (everytime, too)

3. being on TOP

the three of them refer to the same word. fame. without fame, you are nobody. without fame, you are nothing. to be popular, you have to sacrifice some in order to get everything.

sadly, some teenagers totally get this 'fame' concept wrong. it's not only about being the attention, getting the attention and being recognized. rather than fame, it's way better to have a good REPUTATION. fame is transient, it is temporary. it could disappear in a blink of an eye. vanished.

do not hold on to fame, because when it's gone, you will find half of your body missing. however, losing fame is nothing compared to losing reputation. when fame is gone, people won't really care or notice it, but when your GOOD REPUTATION is gone, you will be thrown from society, banished, mocked, and you would have to start from zero again to gain that good reputation once more. it's as hard as gaining trust once again after you broke a promise. zillion times harder because some people don't believe in second chance.

I know that being bad is sad and being ordinary is even sadder, but back to my opinion, fame is not everything, but reputation is. don't ever let the good reputation slip away from your hands :)

To: Marco

Marco,

pasti suatu saat gua bakal ngomong juga tentang ini ke lu

tentang gua yang membiarkan semuanya lewat tanpa ngasih penjelasan ke lu

kita udah kenal 6 tahun

jadi gua rasa lu udah tau gua kayak gimana dan gua kurang lebih juga tau lu gimana

gua ngerasa hubungan kita jadi aneh

apa cuma gua yang ngerasa aneh?

gua tau, gua bukan temen terbaik lu

tapi gua inget semua, bahkan detik di mana gua kenal lu

waktu 2 smp, pas lu pindah ke Kristo

waktu itu juga gua main ke kelas 2A dan lu masih sering isengin Pea pake gesper

waktu 3 smp, gantian lu sering main ke kelas gua

minta slai olai gua atau Oba

waktu 1 sma, pas lu berantem sm gua dan lu marah sekali

sampai berbulan-bulan lu ga ngomong sama gua

waktu 2 sma, pas kita duduk sebangku dan lu mulai lg ngomong sama gua

dan waktu 3 sma, di mana lu mungkin mendapat temen-temen yang lebih baik dari gua

emang kita ga selalu ngobrol, tapi bagi gua elu temen spesial, Marco

cuma lu yg bisa blak-blakan tanpa ragu ke gua

kalau gua aneh, lu yg bilang terang-terangan gua aneh

sampe pada saatnya lu deket sama Silvi

sampe pada saatnya gua ga pernah cerita apa-apa lagi ke lu

karena gua tau, yang cerita ke lu skrg Silvi

tapi, gua ga bisa rela dan terima, kalau lu perlahan-lahan ilang dari hidup gua

apalagi sejak masalah gua, Polim, Silvi

gua ga bisa terima kalau lu lebih belain Silvi

gua sedih kalau inget lu ngomong ke gua tentang masalah dia yang harusnya dia

omongin sendiri ke gua

gua emang salah. salah karena membiarkan diri gua jauh dari lu, tanpa jelasin hal yang

sesungguhnya terjadi

tapi gua juga sedih karena lu percaya tanpa berusaha nanya ke gua, apa yang sebenernya terjadi

sampe pas kita di Carita pun, gua ga kuasa ngomong dan jelasin masalah ini

tentang masalah gua dan dua orang itu, kalau gua ga pernah nyuruh dia mundur

tentang uneg-uneg gua, karena temen gua sejak smp lambat tapi pasti memudar

dari pandangan gua

jujur gua sedih pas lu bilang ke gua kalau gua nyuruh dia mundur

gua mau jelasin semuanya. tapi buat apa kalau lu sudah percaya dia?

sampe pas gua dan temen-temen nganter lu ke bandara, gua cuma bisa

menyaksikan punggung lu berjalan lebih jauh meninggalkan kita

sekarang, lu mungkin bahagia disana. gua juga seneng disini, tapi gua suatu saat

pasti akan bilang hal ini.

seringkali, gua bingung, kenapa kita bisa kayak gini? sifat gua sama lu memang

jauh beda. mungkin gua bukan temen yang baik.

kalau ada orang yang paling bisa bikin lu kesel dan marah, mungkin itu gua.

kadang-kadang, gua mikir, semua akan lebih mudah kalau kita stay di smp aja

selamanya.

di mana ga ada masalah.

di mana rambut lu masih lurus, kasar, dan ga ikal

di mana badan lu masih gendut

di mana kita masih bisa ngerayain ultah lu dan Oba di Pizza Hut

gua pingin balik ke masa-masa itu aja, Marco.

tanpa harus melangkah ke SMA di mana...

kita berantem dua kali.

gua berteman dengan siapa, elu berteman dengan siapa.

andai ada kesempatan kayak pas lu pulang ke Jakarta dan kita ke TA

trus pulangnya jem 10an lu nganterin gua pas jalan sepi, gua akan ngomong hal ini semua

mungkin lu akan marah, lebih marah dari pas kita kelas 1 SMA. tapi gua cuma pingin jujur.

karena menurut gua, elu temen cowo yang spesial.

gua pingin denger lagi kata-kata "elu sahabat gua Nat, makanya gua ngomong ini semua ke lu."

gak apa-apa lu mau ngebanyol dan ngomong sampe pagi, asal kita bisa kayak dulu.

tiap gua liat foto perpisahan kita pas 3 SMP, gua pingin detik itu juga loncat ke masa lalu

jadi, Marco, terlepas dr lu anggep gua spesial atau nggak,

gua pasti selamanya akan inget kalau dulu pas gua remaja,

gua punya temen yang pecicilan, suka nyasar, mulutnya tajam, tapi baik hati karena selalu

menginginkan yang paling baik untuk kawan-kawannya.

gua akan inget lu. selalu.

Quasimodo

today, something happened.

I was doing nothing, sitting and my eyes were wandering.

I was almost in trance, when suddenly a drop of tear from both of my eyes overflowed my cheek.

why did that happen? I was perplexed.

this is what I'm most afraid of, that my old wounds would re-emerge to the surface.

that the other side of me, the full-of-heartache me would take over the real me.

then for like a second, those unhappy things came in a flash.

the betrayal. the leaving friends. the old wounds.

I'm frightened. I'm scared. I'm fearful.

frightened that this was the manifestation of the unsaid and upsetting things I should have said.

scared that I cried because I bury to many sad experiences.

fearful that forever, I won't be able to forgive and forget.

CLAMP

hey! as I told you before, I'm a hundred percent on fire in blogging these days! you can see that each day I could write two or three posts in a row.

do you like manga and anime? I always have a deep unexplainable affection towards them. the main reason is because being a mangaka (the person who makes manga/comic books) turns out to be clearly hard. why? because first, they are chased by deadline while they have to sketch and perfect (perfect here, is a verb) their drawings. second, drawing manga is terribly intricate! the sketching, the stroking, the perfecting part, and the final touch. if I were asked to make jobs I do highly appreciate and adore, I would list mangaka as the first rank.

among all mangakas, I have a profound impression to this group of mangakas:

who knows these kirei onna's? yup, you got it right. they are CLAMP. originally, CLAMP was a group of mangakas consisted of 9 members, but now only 4 left. they are: Okawa, Mokona, Nekoi, and Satsuki. seriosuly, they have so many styles of drawing and plenty genres of plot in each of their manga.

these are some outstanding yet stupendous mangas from CLAMP:

Clamp School Detectives (Clamp Gakuen Tanteidan) - 1992

Shirahime - 1992

X - 1992 (my favorite!!!!!!)

Magic Knight Rayearth - 1993

Cardcaptor Sakura - 1996

Angelic Layer - 1999

Chobits - 2001

XXX Holic - 2003 (my second favorite!!)

Tsubasa Reservoir Chronicle - 2003

Code Geass - 2006 (in cooperation with Sunrise, but it was CLAMP's original design)

those are the mangas (and also animes) from CLAMP that I have watched and read. see what I mean by various styles? we can see the differences in the body proportion and faces. I think CLAMP created the 'Long Body' style since XXX Holic but among all, the artwork I love most is XXX Holic.

Bitch-back!

"three words. eight letters. say it, and I'm yours."

"break-ups are easy. having to see them date someone else, that's hard."

"maybe I'm a total bitch. ever think about that?"

"I told you. there's a price to pay"

"whoever said money doesn't buy happiness, didn't know where to shop"

"I never thought that the worst thing you'd ever do would be to me"

"destiny is for losers. it's just a stupid excuse to wait for things to happen instead of making them happen"

"they say it's a broken heart, but I hurt in my whole body...."

- BLAIR CORNELIA WALDORF. XOXO, GOSSIP GIRL.

Girls On Top

I'm a huge fan of tv series. am and will always be. my favorites are: gossip girl, grey's anatomy, heroes, glee, and smallville. for each tv series, I have a character I really adore and look up to. they are my role models. here they are:

1. Blair Waldorf from Gossip Girl

"Destiny is for losers. It's just a stupid excuse to wait for things to happen instead of making them happen."

Blair Waldorf is often times labeled as a 'mean girl'. behind her flawless features and fashion sense, she is just a hopeless romantic when it comes to her love life with Chuck Bass. it is true that she is cruel and ruthless, especially when she wants to get something. but she is a very very loyal friend to her best friend, Serena Van der Woodsen.

2. Cristina Yang from Grey's Anatomy

"Yes you are. You know, I know a liar when I see one because I am a liar."

Cristina Yang is of Korean descent. there is only one word to describe her: hardcore. among all her fellow surgeons, Cristina is the most realistic, abrasive, overbearring, and ruthless (sometimes). she is obssessed in getting 'cool surgeries', especially Cardio surgeries. she is closest to Meredith Grey.

3. Claire Bennet from Heroes

"I walked through fire and I didn't get burned. "

Claire Bennet is a cheerleader of her cheerleading squad. on the surface, she seems like an average teenage girl. in fact, she has a magnificent superpower. she is INVINCIBLE. she got hit by a train and healed. she cut her toe and the toe grew again. her head got cut open and yet she healed once more. conclusion? she CAN'T DIE because her cells always regenerate even when she is badly injured.

4. Sue Sylvester from Glee

"I will no longer be carrying around photo ID. Know why? People should know who I am."

Here comes my second favorite after Blair Waldorf!! Sue Sylvester is just epic. she is the main antagonist of Glee. she is the coach of a front-leading cheerleading squad, Cheerios. she has some similarities with Cristina Yang, hardcore, ruthless, and able to break someone's heart by her sharp-as-a-knife words.

5. Lana Lang from Smallville

"If life doesn't make you crazy, then why bother living it? I know that's how I want it. The question is, do you want what I want?"

No Louise Lane, PUHLEAASEE!! the only girl I approve of accompanying Clark Kent is Lana Lang. both Louise and Lana's name initials are LL if you notice. the difference is, Lana's beauty is asian beauty while Louise symbolizes strong sexual american beauty. Lana's heart is as soft as cotton and we often catch her shed countless tears. but still, she is Clark's first love, right? as people say, first love never dies :)