Escalating Myself

I frequently tell myself that as from this time onwards, I will have a more qualified and escalated life. not only life, I mean. but me, myself, has to improve and develop in every possible good way. day by day, I always try to toss the bad treats away, and welcome the good characteristics. however, I am well aware that sometimes, life can't always go the way we want it to. the are cracks and lacks in so many things. I can't hide or elude them, I merely have to live my life to the fullest and enjoy every little thing it brings.

talking about my life recently, there were indeed so many things happening. starting from saturday, when my mom was sick. I hate it when the ones I hold dearest to my heart get sick. everything is not the same, they become lifeless. luckily she has recovered by now, which is relieving! then to my sudden participation in ICON competition in Untar, I'm joining the news casting competition. actually I am traumatic about joining competitions. since junior high, I'm the type of person who was chosen to participate in many kinds of competitions. first grade of junior high, I and my friend, Fara, joined the try-outs for physics olympic (we both didn't make it. after a while I realized I couldn't stick to exact lessons such as math, physics, and chemistry) then on the third grade I joined a presentation competition with Stephanie (which was another failure! we had given the best, though). it was about hydrophonics planting. I even couldn't recall all competitions my school assigned me to. I am traumatic of not giving my best, of not winning, and of disappointing the people who believe in me.

I'm glad the other person to join the news casting is Zilvia. I mentioned her in my first post (just read my first post). she's so experienced. she's outstanding. so, from this second, over and over again, I'm gonna remind myself to not feel the heartache IF I don't win. the thing is, I am a very very competitive person. being ordinary is what I'm most afraid of. maybe because I'm a teenager, I'm still so energetic and wild that I want to give my best.

the next great thing is, here:


GEE, IT FINALLY CAME OUT. MORE THAN A MONTH ALREADY, BINUS!

what can I say? 3.90 is not bad. I am thankful. I hope it will be 4.00 this semester.